Blogmoir: Moment of Clarity

Thank God for granting me this moment of clarity. This moment of honesty. ~ Jay-Z

I was doing too much: Work, Podcasting, Reading, Reviewing, Copyediting, Traveling, Writing, Socializing and more. Takeout for lunch, snacks throughout the day, a heavy dinner and dessert. I work on the computer so sitting for hours yet tapping "dismiss" when my Apple Watch sends a reminder to stand. I'd at least exercise 30 minutes on my trampoline but walk right past the treadmill with all its collected dust. I stayed busy and fought the chronic fatigue. Sure, I took daily naps but I was right back up doing too much.

Well God found a way to make me stop and listen. He designed our bodies to need rest.

"Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him." ~ Psalm 62:1

Acceptance is the first step. I accept the diagnosis. I accept there is no cure. I accept I will never be in complete remission but instead chemical remission. I will remain on "forever" medicine that is an immunosuppressant to treat and control. I will regularly get lab tests to make sure my numbers continue to improve then remain normal. I accept the good days and even the bad because they're another day I am blessed to be here. I accept all the support, healing and love.